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Jul. 4th, 2009 @ 08:13 pm Miracle called nature
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It's raining since morning here. I love rain. Just because I have a meeting coming up this Monday, haven't taken chance with getting drenched in rain.

What's so good about rains? Summers are hot. Air's full of dust. Leaves, plants are all covered up with dust. And then there comes rain. Washing the leaves, cleaning the air. Plants are all green again as if they are full of life again. So is summer evil?

Not at all. Summers are good too. These are the times when many species come out of hibernation. Things which were stopped during winter, start moving back again. Rains won't be there if there be no summer. No evaporation, no clouds. Many living things wait for summer.

What about winter? Honestly speaking, it's my favorite season. Winters let you stop and relax. They help plantation cycle also to cleanse in terms of shedding off old leaves, preparing them for better growth when summer comes in.

All my life, I have known and witnessed only one miracle called Nature. Think of it. Life by itself is nothing less than miracle. Life of not just you and me but of every living being. Starting from being born till death, it's a continuous cycle. And then you see cycle/recycling thing so much in every aspect of nature. Seasons, weather, habitat, ecosystem. And everything is interwoven. There is so much to nature, so much learn from. Nature is life. The only real friend we have. Yet we keep hurting it. Every time we are destroying nature, we are destroying life. Not just of ours but of every living being. Be it plants, be it animal.

Nature was at its creative best when creating human species. Wonder if it would be feeling cheated at times. Misplaced intelligence, huh?



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Jun. 8th, 2009 @ 08:46 am My impression of "the story of sin and sinners"
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[Not really a continuation to - http://peeyush.livejournal.com/453785.html :)]

It came very close in depicting human nature. Once my good friend said this to me - "There are two ways of finding out how the person really is. First, put him in unknown (supposedly difficult) situation and Second, give him power.".

When times are difficult, things become chaotic. Actually it's not that things are chaotic but our mental thinking becomes chaotic. So everything seems to be falling apart, vision goes blurry and panic strikes heart. And those times, those desperate times you will know the real yourself. The point, to me, in that story was not to find sinner(s) and punishing them. In that sense that story has a very cruel conclusion. My observation from it was that even the supposedly good people fall/fail during difficult time and in order to protect themselves, pushed out the other person outta his shelter.

I have the fortune of knowing three such people who have remained untouched by time. Good times or bad times, their soul stayed noble. Needless to say, these are the people I value the most.
Jun. 6th, 2009 @ 04:05 pm The story of sin and sinners
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Honestly speaking, I don't know the title of this story. So coined the title as given above. In case you know the real title of the story, do let me know. For that matter, I don't recollect the exact wordings either. So here's a rephrased version of it.

This has been one of my favorite stories.



There are 5 villagers walking down the mountain when suddenly the weather goes bad. It gets windy, thunderstorm starts and lightening starts striking with every blink of eye. The five villagers take refuge beneath a wide tree. One of them says - "What a surprising weather! The sky was so clear few minutes ago and now it's pouring like anything. What could be the reason?". The oldest person says - "It must be fury of god. There's a sinner amongst us. The lightening is waiting to strike that person. Till that person doesn't go out and present himself to the fury of god, the thunderstorm will continue like this".

Everyone start seeing each other. No one is saying anything. Then the youngest person gathers some courage and says - "May be it's me. I have committed enough sins till date. But please don't ask me to go out. I request you. I don't want to die.". But by now everyone is furious on this young lad and start cursing him. They start holding him responsible for the difficult time everyone is going through. Dejectedly the youngest member says sorry to everyone and moves out of the shelter of the tree. As he barely walks a few hundred meters away from that tree, suddenly the lightening strikes that tree killing everyone beneath it. The old man was right. The sky starts clearing again and weather starts coming back to normalcy after that incident.



Moral of the story? I don't know :)

I guess it is multifold. The youngest member might be a sinner but those who deprived him of his only shelter became more sinner than this guy. Another could be that being honest and truthful is important. It may take lot of courage to stay honest and truthful but it's equally rewarding. And yet another lesson could be that if people do wrong with you, don't lose hope. You will survive. Things will surely change for you even when they are not changing for others.
May. 14th, 2009 @ 07:11 am If not straight, go left... go right... Go somewhere for gods sake, dude!
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Recent times I seen too much of skepticism building into self. Not that it's unusual with me but this time I was going overboard with it. Someone should take blame for it. Not me, of course. The culprit is... Summer heat! :P

I link my skepticism with laziness. When I am feeling lazy and don't want to rock world around, I start taking world the way it is and not the way I want it to be. Roadblocks never mean end of journey. They were never the destination that you had planned for. Roadblock just means that you have to take diversion, take on the unknown roads, enjoy the adventure and still make it to the destination. And that's actually the beauty of roadblocks. You won't learn new things unless you get them. And life, journey will be awfully boring without them.

When kid, we had this "grow and show the plant" thingy at school. Got seeds and soil from market, planted seeds, worked out placement for maximum sunlight, did whatever nurturing book had talked about and then finally went to school for the showcase thingy. Teacher made some notes in her file and then we were to take it back. One of the passerby bully character broke the healthier branch of my plant. Me was furious and sad but instead of fighting that idiot crap, priority was to get it back to home and do something about it. At home, borrowed one piece of cloth from mom. Tied it around that small plant just as a doc applies plaster to your broken arm. Worked out support thingy plus a neat dressing at the broken side. And can you guess? The branch didn't wither, it didn't die out. It continued to grow, it started flowering. Just that it couldn't join back to parent stem and occasionally I had to keep changing the support structure and the dressing of bandage around it. Later on I learned that it didn't join back was because of some mistake in my initial dressing the day accident had happened. Didi's school text book talked about growing rose plant by means of some procedure of pulling out branch from it's shrub, make a triangular cut and joining it to new shrub and across time the branch joins with the new parent. I don't recollect the terminology for this procedure but it's a famous one and I believe everyone must have learned it during their school time. What me ended up doing was prior to learning this thingy from her textbook. Luckily it worked out without any prior knowledge. And yeah, though it might have worked out better but then that partial success wasn't bad either.

So the point is, you will find your way out if you have the will for it. Your heart and head will discover ways for you even for unknown situations and/or problems. It's okay to feel sad and to crib for sometime. After all, docs do say that tears cleanse eyes (and so one should cry once in while :P). However, crying very often can be disastrous. Your eyes will suffer, your nose will too. The worse part? Too many! Your head will also start aching abruptly in between. Your voice will become sour. And if this physical hurting is not good enough, damages to your psyche, your mind is much worse. So cry a little to keep your eyes healthy but avoid being a tap water :P

So next time you hit a roadblock, pull chalk outta your pocket, draw some cartoon sketches on that roadblock, leave your signature beneath and take diversion for new discoveries :D
May. 12th, 2009 @ 07:21 am Game of life
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Nope, not talking about http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Game_of_life. Not about conway's edition(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Conway%27s_Game_of_Life) either.

Game of life that every individual plays is pretty much different and very much evolving one. As individual, the person identifies some rules, some objectives and some priorities for his/her life and tries to play it by that. If it were about survival in isolation, then the game would have been static in nature. The dynamism comes in as the society comes into play. So people come together for something, some cause, some objectives. Then we have clashes of rules, priorities, objectives etc across these individuals in the society. Few people adjust to the needs of hours, some get influenced by new learning(s) and evolve their rules, priorities and even objectives at times and remaining end up in clash mode.

Game of life, for an individual, is therefore complicated by the inclusion of collaborations and evolutions thereby. Game of chess is way too trivial. You can differentiate between friend and foe. You can predict moves. And the game nicely concludes with either a draw between both or one contender wins. Things are different in Game of life. First, there are no fixed friends or foes. People will unexpectedly switch their sides. Every move you make will have both, opportunities and constraints. And funnily there is absolutely no such thing as clear win or clear defeat. Everyone claims of partial win and partial loses. You win some, you lose some. Besides, this game... the so called game of life actually doesn't conclude there. It doesn't conclude with a win or defeat. It concludes with something else. Rather something quite antonym, something very much opposite to definition of life. Ironical, isn't it? :)
May. 10th, 2009 @ 07:53 am Lessons that education doesn't teach you, but yet you learn at schools
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"You should fight. Only after fight does the other person knows about your power."

I think it was Vikas Sharma who had shared his words of his wisdom with me. I were in 8th standard that time. Those were the times when suddenly the atmosphere had started lot of hostile air. Not that things were too bad but just for power exhibition, kids used to find even trivial of excuses to have fight with anyone. Those were the times when I started seeing a splurge in groupism theory and started developing lot of conflicts with society and social understandings. Got a drift developed between 'me' and 'them'. But then it never bothered me, nor them to try fill the gap and we lived happily within our spaces.

their theories of those times )

Was reminded of these things when talking to didi yesterday. She happened to meet some person who had graduated from our college. That person informed her that things at college have gone bad with students exhibiting outrageous behavior with each other and teachers. Then I inquired about school things with her. She is teaching high school students between grade 8 to 10 and her experiences aren't good either. Have things worsened over time? I remember these things happening during our school time and college time also. The so called notorious set always existed. But if their density has increased over time then we may have slightly more worrying times ahead.

Future misplaced, eh? :)
May. 5th, 2009 @ 10:09 pm Prejudice deceives oneself
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Never take anything for granted no matter how small or trivial it appears. A spark can ignite the forest. An ant can kill the elephant. A single but deciding moment can redefine the millennium. It's the coal that can transform into a diamond.

It's all about how you identify and how you apply.

Earlier me used to avoid judging people, events and actions. But recently I saw myself trying to do predictions, forecast about anyone, anything and everything. Not that out of blue have I discovered some sort of ESP or alike. For that matter, I am a non-believer of destiny. I have believed that people use destiny as an excuse to cover up both, actions as well as inactivity.

So what is this judging thingy. One friend had taught me that we should not generalize. No two creations of god are alike. Every individual object is unique and special. We don't look closely to identify those special thing(s) of that individual object. Identifying those special characteristic(s) is what we call 'discovery' in science. No matter how hard or difficult it may look but it's amply rewarding. Rather we end up identifying partial goodies against some commonly known pattern and then simply assign that object to that pattern category. The funny thing is that then we go reverse. We now start applying the generic characteristics of the so called pattern to that object even if we never cared to see whether those so called generic goodies are truly applicable to that object or not. Simplest example is stereotyping of person based on region or religion he/she belongs to. Heard of "Kanjoos Marwari or Sardarji kae 12 baje" thingy? What's the problem with stereotyping? Knowingly or unknowingly you end up discriminating.

I had forgotten this thing but then my other friend reminded me of similar teachings in a different way. I was passing some nonsensical comment about someone when my friend interrupted me and asked why I was talking stupid. I had no answer to it.

That shudder was very much needed. Thanks, Pal :)
May. 2nd, 2009 @ 07:59 am Meeting friends
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I am not good at maintaining contacts with my friends. Not to be pinging first. Not to be keeping track. I think I don't have serious emotion(s) attached to friendship. And I do believe that my friends do know about it. Yet they are kind enough to make sure links are not broken. Don't know if I should feel lucky for having such friends or feel guilty for being such a friend to them. It's easier spending time feeling lucky :P

Met Satchit yesterday. He has come home for a shortish vacation. We decided to meet at Barista, Juhu. As I was walking down the street, happened to meet Nilesh (another of my college buddy) after a gap of 10 years. We stared at each other for couple of seconds and then prompted the other person's name. Exchanged telephone numbers though I wonder if at all I would be making any calls. Then told Satchit about Nilesh meet and expressed surprise how incidental it was. He then reminded me of how we (Satchit and myself) got in contact after some 7 years of non-communication. His colleague in his office and my colleague in my office were friends themselves. I don't know how exactly the entire event fall through but all I recollect is Maria asking me if I know of Satchit. I guess his colleague also happened to ask Satchit if he knew Peeyush. Thanks to them, we somehow ended up meeting each other. Thankfully we happened to maintain contacts from both sides. It, for some reasons, is not happening with most of my other friends. 8th March I sent mail to Yunus wishing him on his bday. Then we exchanged our phone numbers in mail. He called me up. I was in office that time. Came back home. Mom informed me about his call. I don't call back since it was 2300 hrs in night. And then it just slipped off my mind entirely. Bad me.

I guess connecting friends is one of the primary reason for orkut being so famous. But me is a lazy and a loner type character. I am never comfortable in crowd. Couldn't survive orkut either. But then is that all? For some reasons, I haven't been able to comprehend the essence of friendship (as defined by others) beyond mere acquaintances.

Humans may be social animals but me ain't any social human.
Apr. 25th, 2009 @ 10:52 am Not so long distance call from Hyderabad
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Am @ Hyderabad. First visit to the office centre @ JNTU. So, in a different part of city.

Though I spent some quality 3 months in this city, yet city seemed quite unknown when I was roaming around. Something felt missing. No, haven't had any bad experience. Everything is calm. Calmer, I guess. I hope things are okay with the city and its citizens.

Will be returning tonight. Hoping to finish certain professional and personal commitments before that. I remember someone asking me why are you taking more though your plate is full. Don't know if it's greed or if it's fear (though either one is equally bad :P). But then this is a "stranger's paradox" (or may be "Peeyush's paradox" if you may like it) in a city. For some reasons, you don't know if you will get the next meal or not. That's the fear part about uncertainty of coming times. You want to stay full/tight so as to be prepared for small time adversaries. Greed part comes from tasting (or knowing) all possible things subjecting your tummy to excessive adventures.

I somehow happen to see the similar analogy with work also :)
Apr. 7th, 2009 @ 09:57 pm Till the time you find elixir/magic wand...
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May be sometimes it is better to rebuild than to reclaim what's lost.

It's quite a commonplace to see families fight over some piece of land or money or something. Generations after generations keep fighting over these things inside and outside courtrooms. More than money or greed thing, sometimes the complications are largely because of ego and pride. Stupid thing about pride is that it is much harder than diamond to break and unfortunately when it breaks, it doesn't break in isolation. Many things break along with it.

Build/rebuild something than to claim/reclaim. Though the example used was about family dispute thingy, it is applicable in professional life too. Many institutes have difficulty surviving fall. It's difficult to accept failure/rejection in certain areas to which emotions are attached. But then for how long can one push the dead horse around. Instead of spending energy in dragging that thing for legacy/historical reasons it is better to direct energy, fresh blood to areas of growth.

Recently, we lost our tulsi shrub two weeks back. We had the super-twins shrubs which had grown so wide and tall that they used to exceed my height. I remember Venkata appreciating it and saying that he hadn't seen any tulsi shrub bigger than that. Losing it was quite heart-wrecking. Eventually we were left with no choice except to replant the new seeds and try grow it from start again.

May be there are some lessons to learn from this too. Let go. Rebuild.
Apr. 4th, 2009 @ 10:42 pm Eternal question - The purpose
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Had a long chat with Satchit, my friend. We were thinking about the rules and the rulebooks. Rulebooks as in the ones defined in religion or by society etc. The essence was about how to live, why to live etc (yeah, again). Pretty complicated stuff as there are no ends to these things and no definite answer. It possibly is about how individual takes it.

Whenever my friends ask me - "what's purpose of your life? What's your goal/dream?", I go blank. I have no answer to this question. I prefer living in moments. I don't have any well defined goal(s). At times I do set some small time goal for the purpose of work or something. Like I said, I prefer to live in moments. I am more comfortable as vagabond than as a traveler in pursuit of some destination. Being vagabond helps in keeping away frustration of taking wrong turns, messy road and delay in reaching something. Because there is no 'something'. Eat, sleep, work. Simple stuff to be at peace. No expectations, hence no agonies of missing anything and yet everything you get is some sort of award. If this is supposed to be so simple then what's the purpose of life? What are you supposed to be learning from it? Beats me :)

Not sure about what lessons life is supposed to give or usually gives. The most important lesson that death gives to those who are left behind is - To accept and to let go. There exists no thing which can stay forever. You will need to part ways with it some day. No matter how much you hate it, you have to accept that fact and you have to let it go.
Mar. 29th, 2009 @ 08:36 pm A few good people
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Respect the truth. Honour the person saying the truth. These are the people more precious than gems with an ability to cleanse your soul and keep you on right track.
Mar. 7th, 2009 @ 07:41 am Education, label and knowledge
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Am entering minefield. Education is not my cup of tea. In neither way. Neither as student, nor as prof and not even as bystander. But anyone can pass comment on anything. After all, we live in hypocritical world. Heh heh...

... )

Yeah, randomness strikes again :P
Mar. 1st, 2009 @ 07:57 am Walking few steps backward
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January was filled with sort of introspecting times amidst chaotic work. Chaos is funny thing. Earlier I used to be skeptical about chaos. Used to believe that chaos and peace can't coexist. Probably I underestimated peace. Peace can coexist with anything and everything. After all, like happiness, peace is also simply a state of mind. You can surely find your ways towards it. All you need to do is to... Stop Thinking!
Jan. 24th, 2009 @ 07:39 am Growing by diminishing yourself
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What's so special about sledging? It's a nice way of disassociating an individual from team. You start owning the attacks to self alone. Your mind loses out the focus from the big picture and it tries to retaliate. You start attacking but with rage and thanks to rage, your attacks are not so well coordinated. In a way you end up helping the opponent achieve his objective. Zidane, Dravid, Symonds... All "stars" have fallen for it at sometime or other. Getting tagged as "star" makes your ego larger than every other thing. Ego is the first cut, sledging just helps in widening it.

What's the great thing about any sport? Even when you are playing as an individual, game is not limited to yourself. You still represent a team - your nation, your coach(s), manager etc.

For things to work, for a team to stand and deliver, all it needs is to give up on individualism.
Jan. 19th, 2009 @ 08:40 pm Title? Nahin pata :P
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Hamne ghar banaye, ghar kae saath darwaaje banaye
Apno kau bulate, gaero sae khud kau bachate hain
Lakeeren kheech, aapas mein duniya baat li hamne
Laugo kau bhool, bas meeti sae naata jod liya hamne

Apni hi lakeero mein ulajh kar rah gayen hum
Band kar Mann kae darwaaje bhool gayen hum
Neerjeev dhara bhi jeevan bahati hain
Been pehchane sabki pyaas bujhati hain
Jan. 18th, 2009 @ 04:42 pm Vengeance
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Call it hypocrisy or whatever. No matter how much people decry it but they themselves seem to be driven by it. It's like those drugs that keeps killing you slowly but you can't give up on them for they push you in some sort of ecstasy thing. You know it but you won't give up on it. Is it this simple?

Lemme start with my appreciation of the "Crank" movie. Jason doesn't give up on life, doesn't give up on living. He does everything to keeps his adrenaline pumping to evade heart arrest. All those who meet him keep saying to him - you were supposed to be dead by now. The movie starts with some sort of chase by Jason for the person who has drugged him with poison. But it unfolds quite nicely. Later on he learns that the person behind his fall was his own boss. He avenges his death from all of those before meeting his own. And yet he doesn't die of poison even though he is drugged second time (in the last 15 mins of the movie) too. Now that's what I call an attitude.

Though vengeance act like poison most of the times but, weirdly enough, sometimes it can become the very reason for ones living.
Jan. 18th, 2009 @ 09:47 am Identity
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To know the real self, one has to give up his/her identity.

But how you know which one's real and which one's fake.
Jan. 11th, 2009 @ 08:22 am Rat race vs Human race
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Dec. 25th, 2008 @ 08:04 am Adaptation for survival
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Surviving is not easy. Winning is easy but surviving is not. Personally, I do admire winners but it is the survivors who I would respect. What's the key to surviving? Acceptance and adaptations. Adapting is not possible unless you accept the facts applicable at those times.

Having 'accepted' that, still surviving is not easy. Why? You may undertake wrong adaptations if your analysis of facts are flawed :P